Done with the presentation...the chair of gradschool said it was very good:)...I heard the guy from North Pole has been asking about me from my references...My dad thinks I don't have a vision...I am not sure, if he is right or not about me..I think I just want to get out of this situation..I can't stay put:)...anyways..got to go to an Irish Pub called Duke of York..It was real fun:)although I don't drink but it was great..I liked the atmosphere..ofcourse dancing after..tonight I am going to say good bye for the last time to one of my good friends since she is moving to Montreal..she is moving in with her fiance..we are going to Marche...Marche has always been the place for us to meet..after and beginning of new projects for us..:)

I will be the first Iranian in North Pole;)
I have been so busy with the presentation that I have for this seminar tomorrow and the interview that I haven't had the chance to talk or think about anything else!!!sooooooo tired...The interview went well and the topics are interesting..The prof that interviewd me for the research position is working in fuel cells and hydrogen fuels..and trying to find a sustainable and ecosocio solution of using an alternative way to the way of life in Northwest terretories in Canada..I think the interview went well because he asked for my references..and hopefully by the end of February I am out of Toronto to Inuvik..it is close to Alaska and ofcourse the ocean...It is completely dark there now..because its their rotation of 6 month night...I think If I end up going there would be a very very interesting experience..my dad is still in the state of shock!!he still thinks that I won't go..little he knows that if I want to do something, regardless of what little I might gain from it, I will do it...its not about the money..its about experiencing new research field..meeting new ways of life and people..and Plus I bet I will be the first Persian girl near North Pole;)

Got a job offer in North Pole!!!not really north Pole but somewhere around there!!!harsh climate condition and all!!its a research position...

PRAY FOR ME....AND I WILL TRY MY BEST...

Death is Nothing At All

Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I, and you are you
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to mi in the easy way in which you used to
Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always luaghed at the little jokes we enjoyed together,
Pray, Smile, Think of me, Pray for me
Lety my name be ever the household word that it always was.

There is unbroken continuity,
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight.

I am waiting for you, for an interval,
Somewhere very near, just around the corner, ALL IS WELL.

This was in memory of our friend Shivan Sookoo...you will be in our hearts forever because we are OT3 forever...and indeed we will meet again and there we will have our OT3 great reunion...I hope when I die you would be one of the people who comes to greet me...

It's either because I have finished school or it's just this year that I feel so many funerals and bad news are happening..or may be I am noticing these things now..I am not sure..the only thing I know, is that I feel I am actually living..and its so funny that most of my friends doesn't miss school either;)
Anyways today is one of my classmates funeral..I was so depressed for 2 days when I heard the news last month..I guess I will see lots of my classmates today..OT3 rules:)
Pray for me...I will have presentation at the end of this week..Hopefully the industry people like it..
Every one keep telling me that, wow you have lost weight..and if I had a diet or not...The fact of the matter is that I am beginning to understand the depth of the power someone can have on their surroundings and themselves..I tried this experiment on myself...I decided to have my mom's weight when she got married...I didn't try it with food...I think dancing has a good contribution..Because it is a form of work out..But majorly its the power of subconscious....well I am not going to say it here;)it has copyright;)
I am sure if I try it to other things in my life I will get it..Actually this practice of mine didn't start now...I used to think of all sort of stuff when I was 13 and 14 years old..like I used to imagine that we are in the past and what is happening now is the thought we are having in the past and its not real..so it can be changed.!!

The past two nights have been fun but the consequence is the tiredness of today:)...Friday night was a big Birthday party of one of my good friends..the party room was very nice..and the people were good too..ofcourse dancing involved...there are some people in that party specially girls who already have married that act strangely...I don't understand them..for example they give you dirty looks and all..I am not sure if they are jealus of me or what..I mean they are educated women who have nice husbands or at least seems to have a nice life..and it seems that as if they have missed on their singlehood life..or may be I am wrong..but anyways..I don't even want to think about them..I had a great time in that party..I was so into music and dancing that I bearly ate food;)!!and even talked!!to anyone...to me dancing is a form of getting energy from the nature and sharing energy with people...I love it..I would rather dance than do specific work out..its sooooo boring...anyways...I am happy that at least three of my very good friends were there.. I got to practice saying "no" as well:)...to what I really don't want to do..why should you please some one who would totally bash you in another situtation...
Last night was another birth day party and it was small and great...have you ever seen films where two men are interested in the same girl?...well that was the case for me;)but thank God nothing exciting happened:)... I don't like to break any ones heart..but I don't want to choose some one I am not interested either..so I hope time will change the situation...but the funny thing was that for the first time, I realized how much I like this friend of mine and for the first time in my life I pictured him beside me when they read the marriage lines..I pictured him, sharing a new life...its amazing I have never pictured anyone in my life in that manner....even the guys who I "thought" I was interested in..